These few days have been a total train wreck for me. Call me emo but i feel lost from all directions. What do i have to do to just get that little piece of satisfaction? Why can't things just go the way it is supposed to be for once? Am i suppose to feel like this forever? Do i have to go through the tough times alone? Why does it seem like i am the only who gets hurt & take the fall for everything? Why does it seem like i am the unlucky one? Why are my cries more than laughter? I feel tired & exhausted from going through this again. I got so used to this feeling that it gets harder & harder to just smile or feel a sense of joy. Wen Wen said she wants the old Sabrina back. & i think to myself, can the old me return? Can the ever so joyous & always smiling me return from all the chaos? Am i able to go through this just one more time? I really do hope i am strong enough....